10/28/07 09:25 pm
i dont have the time to talk to myself about pointless things,
i hate when people think for me
even when it's not anything like i would say.
who knows maybe i'll be spontanious and act different to your standards.
and i also hate
how the whole freaking world focuses on getting a bunch of friends.
seriously people in about 35 years, no ones gonna give a shit about how many friends you've had
maybe i'm just the odd one out.
who never sees things clearly.
i don't know.
and i don't know why i should bother.
i really really hate how everyone like talks to so many people and can make a friendship with them in like a week and a half,
yet i take ages to trust or get used to someone.
or maybe it's just cause i'm too shy?
i don't know. seriously.
i feel like i'm getting left behind by society in my little lonely world.
but oh well.
i'd rather have a couple few close friends
than have a million distant ones.
i know it's so cliche.
you know i just don't know what to think.
it turns out that one of the people you know most
can change just in an instant.
that your "best" friend can be your "worst" enenmy.
even when they blame something on you and say
"you act so retarded"
and then they go and do it the next day.
when you try to be a friend thats nice and considerate, and never disagrees
it never works out.
because one friend will get to powerful than the other, and wallah!
you've got a slave.
but on the other hand, if your too pushy with a person, then they will get mad
at you for pressuring them too much.
humans are too unbalanced.
it's kind of sad that we take advantage of each other and waste our lives
in a big bitch fight.
even after you apologize, things rarely go back to being balanced.
so why do we bother with these things?
just pure untouched pride.
humans are you prideful. we take to much honor in ourselves.
i think that some people need to swallow their pride and admit that they are
acting like ass holes.
especailly when they don't "know" that they were doing it.
because you do.
okay so i can't believe school is starting like
i still need some more school clothes!
ahah i was looking back on my e-mails and wow
i was so dorky last year.
but i guess i'll be saying the same thing next year too.
R.I.P. summer 07